Emotions

I've cried for the guy I liked two times, because I only fell inlove two times.
I've cried for too many broken relationships in Korean dramas, and has witnessed too many heartaches from my friends so I developed the fear of falling inlove and getting into a relationship.
I only let friends into my life. I became guarded. I didn't take care of my physical appearance so that nobody would like me.
I've lost confidence and determination because I felt unwanted most of the time.
Sometimes, I even think that I am useless.
I do realize that I am undergoing depression but nobody ever seemed to notice.

I watch sad stories so I could have a reason to cry. So I could let my heart out because my mom never understood the pressure I was into. They always expected too much from me and all I did in my life was make them proud.

Sometimes I don't understand myself too.
Sometimes my emotions are too overwhelming ...