shallow reason :)

I don't know but, it's a very very small thing yet I'm going crazy because of it. One of my crushes liked my wallpost and the other one posted on my wall, just to thank about the add and the accept :)) I don't really know why my happiness went shallow this days . XDDD is this normal ? :))

That's all.
--GUi.

Different or the SAME ? Conclusion: THE SAME.

I thought I was special but then, I knew you did that to others too :|

Hmm. So yea, this college, I had a crush on one of my classmates ( this was a first time ). There were a lot of moments which made me freeze for some time since it was kinda unusual or maybe I was just taking it too much. Anyway, I was just observing him if he did to others too, and then an instant happened and there I knew, I was NOT special :) Just an ordinary friend. So I guess I better stop making things complicated right? There are a lot more things that I should focus on ^_^ Right? Right? Right? =) There's this SEMESTRAL BREAK for 3 weeks to celebrate for ! 

Until next blog post ü 

Behind those smile and laughter are tears and heartaches.

I feel like crying. My heart feels so heavy. I really don't understand this. :/ So confused.

Men who can dance is L.O.V.E

Brian Puspos Choreography of Wet the Bed by Chris Brown
credits: http://www.youtube.com/user/BrianPuspos



Since I'm a person who loves dancing, I am also attracted to people who can dance too (especially if it's like the one in the video :D). 

Video Sharing again (w/ Lyrics)

TEEN TOP - No More Perfume on You

LYRICS:

nunaui hyanggineun neomu neomuna dalkomhae
nae jubyeon nugudo geureon hyanggiga anna mome
nunaui hwajangeun neomu neomuna yeppeun geol
mideul su eopgedo ireon yeppeun nunaga naekkeon geol

nunawa hamkke isseumyeon nan namjaga doen geo gateun geol
nado moreuge eokkaega eusseukhae
eokkaee soneul dureumyeon da sesangeul gajin geot gata
hajiman

hyangsuppurijima ireoda yeochinhante deulkindan mallya
banjjagi bareujima ireoda ose mudeum andoendan mallya
nunan nunajiman jeongmal naega naega joheumyeon geureotamyeon
ttansorihajiman geunyang naega hajandaerohae geudaerohae

hyangsuppurijima
nunaui mommaeneun neomuneomuna seksihae
saramdeul moduga sipjeom manjeomira yaegihae
nunawa hamkke isseumyeon nan namjaga doen geo gateun geol
nado moreuge eokkaega eusseukhae
eokkaee soneul dureumyeon da sesangeul gajin geot gata
hajiman

hyangsuppurijima ireoda yeochinhante deulkindan mallya
banjjagi bareujima ireoda ose mudeum andoendan mallya
nunan nunajiman jeongmal naega naega joheumyeon geureotamyeon
ttansorihajiman geunyang naega hajandaerohae geudaerohae

hyangsuppurijima
naega hajan daero hae eochapi nunan naeobsin mossaneun naekkeo
banjjagi hyangsu go away geugeon yeochingwa na sai trouble maker
jjinggeurin eolgureun ijen No more
nunan useulttaega jel yeppeo
geunikkan ttansorihajima never
naemalman deureo neon naekkeo junge choego

hyangsuppurijima ireoda yeochinhante deulkindan mallya
banjjagi bareujima ireoda ose mudeum andoendan mallya
nunan nunajiman jeongmal naega naega joheumyeon geureotamyeon
ttansorihajiman geunyang naega hajandaerohae geudaerohae
hyangsuppurijima 

SUPER JUNIOR - Mr. Simple

LYRICS:

Because You Naughty, Naughty Hey! Mr. Simple
Because You Naughty, Naughty syuju ganda!

sesangi nae mamdaero an doendago hwaman naemyeon an dwae geureol pillyo eobtji
geokjeongdo paljada jageun ire neomu yeonyeonhaji malja mome jochi anha
seongjeogi johatdaga nappatdaga geureon geoji mwo heung! siljeogi ollatdaga tteoreojyeotda geureon ttaedo itji
eojjeomyeon gwaenchanha swieo ganeun geotdo joha modeun geosi ttae, ttae, ttae, ttae, ttaega inneun geonikka

geudaega namjaramyeon chingul manna sul han jane teoreobeorigo (Alright!) Alright
geudaega yeojaramyeon chingul manna suda tteoreo nallyeobeorigo (Alright!) Alright, Alright

*bwara Mr. Simple, Simple geudaeneun geudaeneun geudaero meotjyeo
bwara Miss Simple, Simple geudaeneun geudaero yeppeo (S J Call!)
bwara Mr. Simple, Simple geudaeneun geudaeneun geudaero meotjyeo
bwara Miss Simple, Simple geudaeneun geudaero yeppeo (S J Call!)

**gaja gaja eoseo gaja makhyeosseul ttaen doragaja golchi apa jukgetdamyeon oneul haruman nolgo boja
an geuraedo geochin sesang jugeora ttwimyeon naman jichyeo gidaryeobwa akkyeodwo bwa neoui nari got ol tenikka

Blow Your Mind gara Mr. Simple
Blow Your Mind ttaega watjanha duryeowo malgo
Blow Your Mind gaja Mr. Simple
Blow Your Mind ttaega watjanha junbi dwaetjanha

sok sseongneun iri han du gaji anin sesange urin sara geugeon aedo ara
mwo ireoke eoryeomna uri jal meokgo jal jago tto jalhamyeon geureoke hamyeon doeji

geudaega hwaga namyeon chingul manna dwitdamhwaro pureobeorigo (Alright!) Alright
geudaega goeropdamyeon norae bulleo sori jilleo nallyeobeorigo (Alright!) Alright, Alright

*Repeat

Dance jayuran ge mwo geuri byeolgeo inna Just Get It Get It
sosohan iltarui jaemi dungdungdung kungkungkung
sarainneun geudael neukkigo sipna Just Grab It Grab It
gaseum ttwineun nae kkumdeurui yaegi dungdungdung kungkungkung
(Because You Naughty, Naughty)

ije geokjeong hajima apen joheun nari ol geoya simgakhan yaegin da dwiro mirwodugo
oneureun barkge useobwa geudaeui hwanhan useume modu gibun johajyeo

*Repeat

**Repeat

Blow Your Mind gara Mr. Simple
Blow Your Mind ttaega watjanha duryeowo malgo
Blow Your Mind gaja Mr. Simple
Blow Your Mind gara Mr. Simple

credits: to the original owners :)

VAIN!

I am very sorry for my face :D

Some picture's from the Photo shoot last August 03.

The Hand Shake

Last August o4, I went to UP to support my dear friend, HENNY B. ANG (nica) and to see my highschool classmates and my dear syndrome gals who were studying there. I was so happy to see them again :D the night started and I was very surprised of how Nica looked, it was not like before. She was very pretty, with all the make up and such. It was also my first time to see her wearing those sexy and girly clothes! Unfortunately she only placed 2nd runner up but it's alright! SHE'S THE CHAMPION IN OUR HEART <3. Anyways, let's go to the real story here. I was just watching Dianne do make up to her classmates when I suddenly noticed one of her guy classmates. I was like, "Oh. He's cute." Dianne came to me and we started chit-chatting. She told Chime about it and they started teasing me! >_< I only said he was cute and meant nothing more. They started planning of introducing me to that guy, I was really like, "NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and I was really nervous. After the block where Dii belongs performed, we decided to go home since it was already getting late. We then approached Dii to tell her we were leaving, when suddenly, that guy(the one I said which was cute) went beside her. Chime and Dii grinned. Dii started to introduce us to him. What really surprised me is when he offered his hands for a shake, but after I shook hands with him. He kept his hands. He didn't shake the hands of Chime and Jie which made me wonder why. Hmm. I didn't really like him. He was just cute, but because they kept on teasing me. I think I'm starting to like him now. Tsk T_T Aaaaaaaaaaaah ~ >.< I don't like this. I hope it won't go on! Ignore Ignore Ignore!

A wonderful day!

o8.o3.11

(Wednesday)

I was really annoyed when I knew that we'll be having our make up class for our CS III subject on the afternoon(because we're scheduled to have it on Tuesdays or Thursdays), but we had no choice but to attend classes or we get zero in our activity. The start of the lecture was normal, just like before, there were more stories than the formal discussion of codes, then we proceeded to the laboratory to have our activity. When we went out of the laboratory, which was in front of the balcony, in the 6th floor of one of our school building, We saw some students who were conducting a photoshoot. One of our classmates then said, "I envy them ..." then unexpectedly, our teacher heard it (he loves taking pictures of random things). He replied, "You want me to take pictures of you? I have my camera with me." then We did have a photoshoot. We never expected him to react that way because he was known to be someone who isn't really close with his students, but we're thankful, he's nice to us :)

Underconstruction

I'm sorry, my blog is again under construction. I'll try to fix it as soon as I have time. Please continue visiting :)

Good Bye.

I finally woke up from the worst nightmare I ever had.

That nightmare sure was long.It took me a couple of months to be able to figure out the way out, and finally I made it. I will stop making friends with strangers from now on. I don't really think it's a good idea. I will do my best to be able to stop this stupid attitude of mine, I want to focus on God and on the things that I must prioritize as a student. I won't let my stupidity overcome my being again. The confusion ends today, I placed him in my blocked numbers, I won't receive any calls nor messages from him, because when I mean I'll stop, I'll S T O P. Yes, I already said that "I will" many times before, and I never really took it seriously. The last time I said I'll do it, was a great mistake because I asked his permission and he said No, this time, I will follow what my heart and mind tells me to do. It is to finally end this thing. I don't know what I really felt for him, it hurts now but this is what is the best thing that I could do to be able to finally forget about him. If his No before was real then he'll try to contact me in whatever means needed. I know it's so sudden and I know he'll wonder why he isn't receiving any messages nor calls from me, so it's up to him to know why. 

It is here! Hooray ~

Tadaaaaaa ~ Here is Argenn Grace S. Besinga's(the owner of escapetomysanctuary.blogspot.com) card fresh from Japan!

Thank You so much for this daiki ~ I love it <3

I don't Understand :/

Hi :) I am currently making my blog as someone I can share the things that are happening to me XDD


I don't really understand my feelings all this time. I can't determine if I'm feeling sad, happy or even the reasons that makes this certain things happen :) Because, You remember Mr. Irresistible right? Yea, I'll be talking about him again. I really want to forget about him already but he keeps on coming back to my mind and then I get to the point that I end up calling and texting him.Last wednesday, I got the feeling that I really want to forget about him and such. So I texted him that night that he must text me when he wakes up the next day because I have something to say. (I feel like I'm in a Novel or something XDD) He replied and said, Tell me now but I refused and told him that I'll tell him tomorrow. The next day came and he did texted me when he woke up. When he answered the call, his voice was so full of energy. He sounded so happy, so I started telling him. "Can you promise me that after this, you'll delete my number and pretend that we never knew nor became friends." I said. I was so surprised of his reply, his voice became serious "NO!" then he hung up. I was frozen for some seconds because I never expected him to react that way. What would be the big deal if someone you just knew through texting would suddenly tell you this? (I am quite mean, am I ? :D) but yea, I never really thought he would react that way. The whole afternoon I was asking myself if I did the right thing. Actually, if he didn't hung up, I was about to admit that I like him but he did so I wasn't able to say it.I decided to call him at 7pm, planning to tell him what I was supposed to. I started to ask him if he was angry at me, fortunately he wasn't. I was about to tell him about my feelings but he started asking, "WHERE ARE YOU?" "WHAT ARE YOU DOING THERE?" "ARE YOU ALONE?" "DO YOU MISS ME?" and such. I got frozen up once again because it was very rare for him to ask me such questions. I don't really understand why, but he gives me reasons to like him more, but I really want to stop!!!!!  He was the very first person that I ever liked this much. I really don't know why. After our conversation, he asked me to go to a nearby buffet restaurant but I was shy so I told him an excuse that I'll be going home with my friends. Plus the fact that I don't like the feeling of going out with men which I don't really know that much or ones that I haven't been hanging around often. I admit he's 4 years older than me and I haven't hang out with him yet (I'm 16 so he's 20 years old), so it's quite awkward. Honestly, I didn't actually plan to like him for real because he was just someone who I can put on my attention to when I wanted to forget my former crush, but it ended up to be like this. I don't know what will happen next but I think I'll just go with the flow and wait for the next thing to happen :)

Complicated Feelings.

Hello :) I'm back again, posting in my blog. Today I will share about a lot of things. First will be my LOW grades. So yea, back in high school, the lowest grade I got was 79. That was when I was in second year, its in my math subject. Now, that I'm a first year college student, my math grade is .. Guess What, 76!! Yea, when I saw it I almost fainted, I never expected a grade like this, though its my fault. I never studied. :D but its okay, I'll make up in my studies this midterms.Well, lets move on. Second is about Mr. Unforgettable. I will call him MR. IRRESISTIBLE from now on. Well, why Irresistible ? because, I can't just take his text messages for granted. I don't know why >.< Sometimes, I even get the feeling that I'm already his girlfriend :)) FEELER! but really! I don't really get it if he hates me calling him or does he like it?! Yesterday afternoon, I called him, he didn't answer. I texted him "Your avoiding my calls?" he replied, "Don't call or text me now, don't reply either. I'll text you later." but unfortunately, his LATER meant after 6 hours XDDD he texted me, "Why did you call me?" I replied, "Because I want to. Y, you don't want me to call you? OK." (I just came out of that from nowhere XDDD) He replied, "Call me now." I replied, "I'm doing something" he replied, "Ok next time" .. after awhile I called him, it ringed a few, I thought he won't answer again, I dropped the call, when I did, HE ANSWERED IT ! >.< but it's okay :) hahahha >.< I just don't understand what I actually feel for him :/

Video sharing :)

Hey guys, I want to share with you the videos which made me rape the replay button :D

>> TEEN TOP'S -- ANGEL


>> GD && TOP'S -- KNOCK OUT
(yea, they released this during 2010 but I just discovered it today.)



>> TEEN TOP'S -- CAN U SMILE?


>> HYUNA'S -- BUBBLE POP



>>4MINUTE'S -- HEART TO HEART 


>> 2PM'S -- HANDS UP



I hope you'll rape the REPLAY button and hit the LIKE button :)
credits to all the owners of this videos ^_^

What's with the charisma of Asian men?

It's my self but I don't really understand why I feel such things though :/ I'm really confused on why do I really get attracted to Asian men (mostly Korean & Japanese). Since I was in my 3rd year in high school, I started to become more attracted to Asian men rather than Caucasians or the like and I really don't know the reason why. Even if they don't really look that good, when I realize that they have that Asian blood in them, they easily attract me  :O Example, this fourth year (I'm referring to a college one) guy I saw. He's a member of our division's dance crew. He's not my ideal type but he has a Japanese blood. I already started to like him even if I didn't really know he was Japanese :) He's a very good dancer indeed (which is one of the things that attract me), as well as he has this small eyes :D but he has this MUSCLE which I really don't like >.< but anyway, it adds to his CRAZY POWERFUL CHARISMA AND HOTNESS ! (According to my classmate) ERRRR. I don't really understand my self though :) but I'm willing to become his friend :P How about you people out there, have you felt of this kind of feeling before? I hope so you did so that you can help me but if you still haven't, it's fine :) but I'm really bothered by this. He's 4 years older than me. I know, it's way too impossible that we can know each other.

Park Hyung sik of ZE:A

so yeah, SAY HELLO TO ANOTHER KOREAN BOY BAND ! :D Originally, I didn't have any interested about this rookie group who debuted last January 2010. Yeah right, It's ZE:A ! The one who introduced me to this group was my soul mother/close close friend/sister, MERRY CHIMERA ORAIZ, the owner of the blog Chime's Diary (this is linked). She told me to search for this group so I did, then I noticed one member who quite looks like Yoseob of BEAST/B2ST(for me). He's one of the maknae trio, Park Hyungsik. He's incredibly tall(he's 183 cm for goodness sake!) and is H O T, he's voice is also great though he doesn't dance so good but I don't why he's so attractive! >.< I think he's my second ultimate bias in kpop world, Shin Dong Ho of U-kiss is first ofcourse :P so here he is! (CREDITS TO THE OWNERS )

- the one on the right is MOON JUN YOUNG(ZE:A's leader and eldest)

ideal man.

since i posted those stupid "LOVE" experiences I had so I better post what my ideal man is like as well.so here it is ~

PHYSICAL:
>> ASIAN looking (those small eyes !)
>> taller than me.
>> pink lips :P
>> cute one.
>> if he's hot then it's wonderful XDD
>> has fair skin

ATTITUDE/INNER ATTRIBUTES:
>> God fearing
>> loves GOD more than me
>> stubborn
>> not too sweet
>> doesn't show his real feelings to me when other people are around

AND AS LONG AS HE MAKES MY HEART BEAT FASTER THAN IT NORMALLY DOES! GAAAAAAAAAHS >.<  

confessions of a girl who had let go about 6 guys already.

This post is about the girl who can easily fall in love and let go of the people she liked so much. This started when she was a first year high school student and continue until her last year in high school. This girl is a little bit martyr because she was able to let herself get her to make the guy she liked and the girl that guy likes happy. This may not be an ordinary story but I really want to share this to you :) This girl is usually attracted to ASIAN looking guys and not of those western looking ones.


That first guy was her school mate on the school she was studying in when she was first year, she asked one of her friends of what was that guys name and that friend immediately concluded that she had a crush on that guy which was actually right! She liked him because he really had a very cute smile and deep dimples on both sides of his cheeks(this guy isn't ASIAN looking anyway). That friend whom she asked suddenly called the guy and told him that this girl had a crush on him. The guy faced away, he didn't actually tell her what he feels but his face turned her after some time. The guy suddenly had air in his head and became arrogant so the girl didn't like her anymore and felt that she needs to let go even though she still likes him so much.


The second guy was from the same school but is her classmate that time(this guy is now ASIAN looking). That's why she liked him. He was quite a bad boy and had really cute eyes when smiling. He was skinny and isn't that tall nor intelligent. He was just simple but for her, he was cool. This guy knew what the girl feels for him after a few months but didn't show any reaction he was against it. This guy and the girl were in the same group of friends called the ARISTOCRATS at their school. The girl knew that the guy didn't actually have those special feelings for her when she knew that another girl that was also in their group and is one of the girl's bestfriend was already his boyfriend.


The girl came back to her former school and there she knew the third guy. This guy isn't on the same year level as she was but was two years younger. He was a new student that time, this girl usually likes some guys because of how they dress up, and this was the reason why she liked this guy aside from his quite handsome face. This girl had a lot of sources so she became friends with him. They sent IM's to each other most of the time when this guy suddenly told the girl hurtful things so she gave him up.


The fourth guy is the third guy's bestfriend. They had the same favorite color, and favorite sport and went together during break time.  This guy had those small asian eyes that's why she liked him so much. This guy became her crush when she was in second year and the beginning months of her fourth year life. She already knew that this guy liked other girls but still continued to like him when her bestfriend then told her that he wants to court the girl who was always with her, so she decided to give him up since the two of them are quite close. She then helped the guy court her and is now happy together. :)


The fifth guy, ooooh! this one is one of the most asian looking ones out of the six :D why? because he is a KOREAN! haha :)) well, let's make this short and simple, the guy became her friend and had some fun memories with him but ended up to become her friend's boyfriend as well as the first and the fourth one.


 The sixth and hopefully the last one, is also a korean so he is indeed asian looking! This guy isn't really that handsome but because she knew he was a member of a dance group on their country so she came to really like him so much even though this guy actually smokes. She saw him in a mall and had her friend get his number(quite flirty right?) :P They texted and called each other for quite a long time(7 months?!). The guy was quite nice but he was taking things too literal, so he felt quite surprised everytime the girl started to have this jokes about her feelings(those were actually meant. HAHAHHA XDD). She got tired so she gave him up and really had a hard time doing it.


>> The girl that I was talking about is actually, ME ! yeah, I'm quite stupid in love though. I really love liking people but doesn't want to have a boyfriend at all. I don't really know why, maybe because I really want to wait for my ice cream ~ so yee. hahha XDD those stories are real.

The answered prayer! ♥

I've been praying for this for about two years already and God's answer last year was "NOT YET" which means, I still need to pray harder and be more patient so I did, and now, God really answered me with a big "YES!" I'm really thankful because now it's really going to happen, for real! The thing that I prayed for and waited for two years is the operation of my left leg because of my mother's pregnancy craving, my leg had a deformity, so i get a little insecure to other people, but now, it's gonna get operated(finally) so I'm excited now, but I would like to ask you guys to pray for it's success. That's why, if you really want to ask God for something then all you need to do is PERSEVERE. Pray harder with all your heart, soul and FAITH and wait patiently for God's answer because sometimes, he doesn't answer our prayers immediately because he wants it to happen in the right time.

SHIN SOO HYUN

the power vocals :)

LEE KI SEOP

ISN'T HE JUST SIMPLY HOOOOOOOOOOT ?